Hi friends! You may have noticed that I took a very unintended blog break – so very sorry! Life has been extremely busy lately! Between work, weekend trips, Thanksgiving, and battling a pretty awful cold/flu virus for over a week – I was barely keeping my head above water there for a little while. I’m happy to announce that I am finally able to function like a normal human being for the first time in what feels like forever, so let’s celebrate with a giveaway!
I received a sweet email from Kelsey at Happie Reading a while back offering to send me a print from her shop and one to a lucky reader of mine! I had a hard time choosing because I kind of love them all, but I finally settled on the print that you see on the right in the photo above! It’s lovely and I can’t wait to mix it with some other photos and prints to start a gallery wall! You can bet I’ll share that with you guys once it’s up. :]
I hope you all had a wonderful and relaxing Thanksgiving filled with family, friends, and yummy food! Aside from being sick, I know I definitely did! Make sure to pop over and check out Kelsey’s blog. She has such a positive spirit and has quickly become a new favorite read of mine!
The older I get the more excited I get about simple things, like exploring nature and taking walks in the crisp fall air with Nate. This evening we discovered a beautiful biking/running trail near our house that we didn’t even know existed while exploring tiny little roads near our house. I was ecstatic – kicking up piles of leaves and having a good ol’ time. I don’t think I will never get used to having seasons. I’ve come to realize that the changing leaves and the snow on the ground will always feel foreign and special after growing up in Florida. And I love that I still feel that way after living here for seven years! After strolling down the trail for a while we ventured off the beaten path and found ourselves in a cornfield. It was such a scenic view at dusk.
I feel like I always say things like this, but this weekend was one to remember. A perfect fall weekend comprised of things we both love – entertaining family at our house and baking treats for them, visiting our favorite local coffee shop, an afternoon at a football game, naps, running, photo shoots, delicious breakfasts, talks of the future and all of our big ideas… so many good things crammed into one little weekend! I always feel nostalgic every Sunday night but you know, I’m just not sure I’d appreciate these times as much without the work week!
I’m so thankful to have a husband who believes in me and my blog. He’s always willing to to go on little photo shoot adventures with me and help me in any way that he can. Like I said.. I’m appreciating the simple things lately. They make the world go ’round.
Let’s preface this whole thing by saying that horse racing is still kind of.. confusing to me. I like to bet on the pretty horses or the horses with cute names and I’m really just not ashamed of that strategy regardless of how well it works- it’s fun. I tried really hard to look at all of the stats this time: how old the horses were, how many races they’d placed 1st, 2nd, or 3rd in, their jockey’s stats, etc. and guess what? Yep, I still sucked. I have a love/hate relationship with the whole idea of gambling. I’m really not sure how many times I told the entire table that I could have bought a new this or that with that $15 I just lost. The few times I did win something though? Pretty worth the thrill! I only took $25 and I managed to not loose it all. I can’t wrap my head around the idea of betting hundreds and hundreds of dollars. Of course, I get upset when we have to throw away food that goes bad before we can use it.. legit upset over like, $2 worth of squash. So yeah, I don’t see myself ever developing a gambling problem.
However! I do see myself dressing as if I’m going to Keeneland every day! I kind of love the simple things, so getting all dressed up with friends to go hang out, eat good food, and wear a big hat? I get pretty giddy about stuff like that. This outfit was thrown together pretty last minute. I came across this hat and top at a yard sale the weekend prior for a total of $3! The hat still had the Forever21 tag attached. Score! I’m really not sure what I would have worn if not for those new key pieces. Nate said I looked like a pilgrim in this outfit and my only comeback was, “A really STYLISH pilgrim.” so… who wants me on their debate team? (I don’t think I’m really stylish, by the way.. but maybe if I was a pilgrim?)
I used to have a blog that was fairly low on the radar of the people I knew in real life – friends, family, coworkers, etc. It used to be a little bit easier to just curl up with my laptop in my PJs after a long day and type out a post full of raw emotion and slap it up on the internet. I suppose it’s just always been easier for me to tell a readership of strangers what I’m thinking. There have been a few changes since that time in my life though – you know, the angsty teenage years of writing deep and meaningful posts on the internet. For the most part, I just plain don’t have a lot to gripe about anymore. My blog is an upbeat place where I share snapshots of my life and my life is pretty good most of the time. But sometimes it’s not so picture perfect and I think it’s good to share that side of life too.
Yesterday came and it went like all of the other days that have come and gone since my father-in-law passed away but for some reason it’s harder to see that date again, that time on the clock – one full year. I don’t think you can fully grasp the reality of time until you loose someone. The hours seem to pass at warp speed and life can become a weird countdown of days, months, and years if you let it consume you. I lost my dad when I was 11, along with several other close family members shortly before and after that. I’ve been able to find peace in those experiences as I’ve gotten older. I can tell how loss has shaped me and made me hyper aware of every single second. It’s given me the ability to be fully present in a moment and recognize it for all of it’s beauty; to be able to watch a perfect memory forming right before my eyes. Sometimes I just stop and think right in the middle of it all, “We’ll always remember this.” This is one of the many reasons I feel the constant need to take photos – the need to remember the little things or the thought that one little picture could become so valuable to someone if there’s ever a time when that’s all they have left to remember someone by. It sounds a little dark and maybe it is but I’ve become so thankful for this awareness.
It’s really easy to stand still in grief – to become angry, to refuse to recognize all that you still have. We aren’t built to see what we have, only what we’ve lost. But I refuse to live that way. I wont go through life feeling like I’ve been robbed – I just wont. That’s not to say I wont ever be sad or ungrateful or have a bad day – that’s life. But overall, I want to be the kind of person who sees the silver lining. I want to be slow to speak negative or angry words. I don’t want to rush or be in a hurry. I want to be truly thankful to be alive. Because if we’re being honest, we just don’t have any idea how long we’ll be here. So why would we waste it?