We’re home. It’s both a breath of fresh air and a strange nauseated pit in my stomach. We’re home, now what?
When I gave birth 11 weeks ago there was a similar reaction to bringing Landon home. As new parents, we had and still have a lot to learn. But the great thing about being a first time mom is that God seems to grant a sense of peace about the whole thing. I was tired and stressed out for sure. I had a bit of the baby blues during his colicky weeks of endless crying. But overall I felt like, “I’ve got this.”
Bringing your baby home from the hospital after 11 days of uncertainty is a different feeling. I can’t say that we have it even close to the worst of anyone. Our babe is home and smiling and as far as we can tell at this time he will be perfectly fine. 11 days is nothing compared to the time a lot of families spend in the hospital fighting illness with their little ones. But I feel like we got a taste of something really awful that can’t be put into words and I can’t seem to get that taste out of my mouth.
When I walked into Landon’s nursery this afternoon I realized how overwhelming it all really felt. I was instantly transported back to a moment of complete chaos in the hospital – sobbing, wonder, helplessness. Days of no answers and him getting increasingly sicker with a team of frantic medical staff surrounding him. Would I bring my baby home? Standing in his room sent a cold wave of “What ifs” through my body.
But we’re home. And it’s good. And I’ve already taken his temperature to “be sure”. And we still don’t know, nor do I expect we will ever know, what made him sick and caused his Kawasaki Disease. I think that’s the hardest part. Nothing to blame. Nothing to avoid next time. Just pure paranoia because all we know is that a terrifyingly rare illness was lurking around and somehow it found my baby.
And now we resume regular life like the worst imaginable thing didn’t almost happen. Because it didn’t and we’re blessed to be here together for however long we have here on earth. The memory of this will fade but for now it is still painfully present on my mind.
1. HALO Bassinest Swivel Sleeper Bassinet: I wasn’t sure if this basinet was going to work out for us at first. Landon had a tough time sleeping flat because of his reflux. So we modified it a bit by putting a book under a leg to raise it on an incline. We also took the vibrating box from the pack n play and put it in the outside pocket on the end of the basinet. The incline and the vibration together made it absolutely perfect for us. I do think that there is a model that vibrates and plays music – but that wasn’t the one I registered for! I absolutely love that it feels like he is right there in the bed with us but yet he has his own space. I am able to pick him up to feed him in the middle of the night without ever leaving the bed. The mesh sides are great – he likes to scoot as close to me as possible and I don’t have to worry about him not being able to breathe when he smooches his face against them. I can also see him without sitting up. The mattress pad is durable and comes with a removable sheet. We bought a few extras of course! Overall, we really like this bassinet. It’s a little pricey but I think it’s worth it to have him at arms reach at night time. It’s pretty big and heavy though – so don’t expect to move it around!
2. Lollypop Muslin Swaddle Blankets: I cannot sing enough praises for these light weight swaddle blankets. They are the only swaddle blanket we’ve found that our ninja baby can’t break out of in the middle of the night. Plus they are made of a super breathable cotton material that keeps him just warm enough without being too hot. They’re large enough to also be used for a nursing cover and again the light weight material is great during this time of year. He has to be swaddled in the bassinet in order to fall asleep so these are a must have for us!
3. Kaydee Baby Bandana Bibs: Y’all know I’m all about my baby looking good! These bibs are so cute and functional. He spits up a lot with his reflux so I was changing his outfit constantly because he would soak himself. Now I just let him wear one of these and change it when I need to! They have a soft lining on the bottom that keeps him nice and dry. Love, love, love them!
4. Moby Baby Wrap: I’ve seen just about a million different wraps online. I’ve only tried this one so I can’t compare it to anything else – but I’m a little bit obsessed with baby wearing now because of it! It has the perfect stretch for a newborn and I feel like it’s very easy to learn how to use. The only issue I’ve found is that it isn’t very breathable so it can get pretty hot to wear baby out and about in the summer heat. But this thing is a life saver. If I need to get house work done I can just put him in it and go. He sleeps and stays content for hours! I’ve even nursed him in it while vacuuming!
5. Mamas & Papas Sola Stroller: This stroller is wonderful. Aside from the fact that it’s gorgeous and I feel like a million bucks when I’m pushing Landon around in it – it’s easy to fold, easy to open, can be turned to have baby face you while riding, glides/turns effortlessly and there’s enough space in the bottom for our giant diaper bag! The only thing I don’t love is that it doesn’t have cup holders. We can easily buy some to attach but I do feel that a stroller regularly priced at around $400 should come with some dang cup holders. This was a gift though and was bought heavily clearanced, so I am not complaining! The only real issue we had was that the adapter we got for our Graco Snugride Click Connect 35 carseat wouldn’t work with it. But thankfully it lays back to accommodate a newborn riding in it so it isn’t a huge inconvenience. We will be able to use this stroller for years! This particular one is discontinued but there is a newer version out called the Sola 2 (linked). I do love that there is a carrycot that you can buy separately as well. If we lived in a bigger city where we would walk a lot more places it definitely would’ve made since to invest in that. But we don’t and the cute factor didn’t justify the price tag for me!
6. Tommee Tippee Closer to Nature Night Pacifier: We received a soothie pacifier from the hospital that Landon absolutely loved but unfortunately it didn’t really contour to his face so he couldn’t keep it in his mouth on his own. I bought other pacifiers and he wouldn’t take them because they weren’t the same nipple style as the soothie. Thankfully my Sister-in-law found these for us and he really likes them! He can keep them in his mouth on his own and they’re super cute!
7. 4Moms Rockaroo Swing: Last but not least, the 4Moms Rockaroo. I’m sure most of you moms and moms-to-be have seen this thing all over blogs, Instagram, in stores, etc. It’s pretty popular! We were given this swing as a gift and it has truly been a wonderful gadget to have. Landon slept in it when we first came home from the hospital. We slept downstairs the first few nights while we got our bearings and he slept in it between feedings. He’s continued to take naps in it and we let him hang out there whenever we need to put him down. We use it daily! He’s pretty content for about 10 minutes when he’s awake and then he’s over it. Overall, we really like this swing but after using it I’m not sure it’s better than some of the other swings out there with cheaper price tags. But!! I do love that it doesn’t take up a lot of space, it has a deep seat that makes me feel like he is very secure, the cover is easily removable/washable and it’s just … pretty! I mean – if you’re going to have kid stuff everywhere at least you can pick something that is nice to look at. ;]
Are there any must have products you’ve found for your kiddos around this age? Share!!!
It’s more than fitting that I recently got the chance to collaborate with Jord to show how I would style one of their gorgeous wood watches. These past 6 weeks have flown by and I’ve been watching the minutes and hours tick by on this pretty little piece. I’ve been wearing it to feel a little more “put together” and it has come in handy to keep up with how often I am nursing Landon. I typically just use my phone to keep up with the time but now that I am caring for a newborn I often forget where it is and lose it in the house for a bit! Mom brain is definitely a real thing, my friends!
Aside from the functionality I really just love the modern and classic design of this watch! I feel like it goes with just about anything I wear. I’ve started to reevaluate my closet and what I want my “style” to be in this new chapter of my life. I’m looking to slowly purge the older trendier pieces to start incorporating longer lasting classic items that are easier to remix. I feel like this is the perfect accessory to add to my closet transformation!
What I Wore: Watch: The Ely in maple c/o Jord Denim Top (worn over dress): Pac Sun Dress: Forever 21 Wrap: Moby
Maternity photos were one thing that I always knew I would want when we had a baby *some day*. Luckily my friend Erika is a wonderful photographer with similar taste to mine so I didn’t have to look far to make it happen! I absolutely love how these turned out! We will treasure them forever. Erika also took photos during Landon’s birth. =) I can’t wait to get to share those as well!