365 Days of Marriage in 2014 - Days 28 Through 47

You may remember that I blogged a while back about wanting to take an Aerial Silks class. I found a Groupon for a place here in Lexington that has classes just right up the road from me and I felt like it was fate. So at 2AM, half asleep, scanning through Groupon deals - I impulse bought 5 classes at Fast forward a few months and I have now taken 3 classes! I procrastinated a bit and started to realize that my Groupon would expire in March, so one afternoon on my lunch break I signed up for a class and went right after work! There were two others in the ‘Intro to Silks’ class with me and they were quite a bit better than I was. They had more upper body strength. I had zero. I was doing pretty well right at first and then my arms just started to give out on me. I felt a little bit frustrated but I knew that this was my first class - how good could I expect to be? You only have to take one intro class before you can move on to the ‘Beginner Silks Class’ but I felt like I needed one more intro class under my belt to really grasp the basics. I went back this past Tuesday and did phenomenally better! I felt so great when I left the class because I really felt like I made a lot of improvement. Not to mention, I wasn’t in a ridiculous amount of pain like the week prior. I had delayed onset muscle soreness for an entire week after the first class and my body hurt in places that I didn’t know it could! It was a good hurt, but you know.. it’s inconvenient when you’re having trouble dressing yourself! ;]

Today I went to my very first beginner class and I just wasn’t feeling confident in myself. It was harder … obviously. I got myself into a pose that hurt because I didn’t keep my leg as straight as it needed to be. And boy did it hurt. I didn’t let anyone know that it hurt as bad as it did but I had to stand back a minute and take a few deep breaths. This was a full class and we were sharing silks and taking turns. I could tell that I was the only one fresh out of the intro class so it seemed slightly more intimidating to be surrounded by a lot of people who were more advanced than me. I was feeling overwhelmed and a little cranky about not being able to JUST BE GOOD AT THIS.

Real talk: I’m a quitter. I’m super gung-ho about new adventures and then when they get a little bit difficult I change my mind pretty quick. I felt myself want to quit in the class today and it made me angry. I don’t want to be that kind of person, not in any aspect of my life. I know I have what it takes and I can be good at this if I put in the time and the effort. I’m determined to be able to look back on this post 5 or 6 months down the road and see the progress I’ve made.

Rad Girl, Rad Gig feature of an Aerial Silks artist. It gave me this little bit of realization that there are people who do this is a JOB, and while I’m doubting there’s a huge market for circus performers here in Lexington, well - it’d be pretty freaking awesome to be that good at it! That could be me. ;]

I made a simple list of goals at the beginning of 2014 that I kept to myself. In the past I’ve made my list of goals for the new year well in advance and ready to blog; long lists full of big ideas that usually end up somewhat accomplished but mostly half-assed. I love making lists - so much so that I can’t keep up with all of them. This year I wanted to be more realistic and so far? Well, I feel like I’m on the right track…

1. Be kind to yourself.
2. Do the things that scare you most.
3. Spend your time on people who spend their time on you.
4. Accept that things don’t always turn out the way you want them to.
5. Be confident in yourself.

This past month I’ve done these 5 things more than I ever have. I’ve been kind to myself by thinking positive thoughts and taking time to myself when I need it. I’ve done some pretty scary (to me) things lately too, and I did them with confidence. I’ve been spending my time on the people who spend time on me. And I’ve really been focusing on accepting when things just aren’t meant to be - an especially important lesson this week. I know that this is all kind of a vague post - and that can be really annoying. But it’s just a little something I wanted to write down and put out in the universe: I’m doing better, I’m getting better, I can do the things I thought I couldn’t do.

Lexington Snow
The dreary months of winter are dragging on here in Kentucky. I’m still trying to find the beauty in it as much as possible - but if I’m being flat out honest, I’m really over it. Every now and then I’ll gaze out my window at the gleaming icicles hanging off of the trees or catch a perfect snowflake on my jacket and it will make me feel so at home in this weather. But then, I drive to work on a sheet of ice and get pelted in the face with freezing rain as I drudge through the parking lot trying to get into the building as fast as possible - BUT NOT TOO FAST - because I don’t know how many times I’ve come THISCLOSE to biting it. Unfortunately, there’s a whole panel of windows facing that parking lot and I know that when my day finally comes there will inevitably be a video of me on YouTube falling banana-peel-style - laptop, purse, and lunchbox flying through the air. Stay tuned for that, friends.
I’ve come to the conclusion that winter is just sucking the life out of me lately. It’s harder to get out of bed in the mornings and just harder in general to get motivated to do anything outside of my list of things that have to be done. Nate and I have literally been sitting around dreaming of warmer days out loud to one another. OH man, PATIO BEER. Remember PATIO BEER?! Barely. I barely remember patio beer. I barely remember sitting outside watching Kristie play volleyball games. I barely remember walking around the farmers market with Nate. I barely remember strolling around downtown on the weekend with friends, popping in and out of all of our favorite places, and wandering back to their house to hang out. You guys, IT’S SO WHITE HERE. Where is the SUN?! It’s getting dramatic.
I’m kidding. It’s not that dramatic, but our heating bills sort of are. That’s quite a big slice out of my metaphorical Winter Complaint pie chart - comparing second in size only to removing myself from under the heat blanket. Do you know how I know that I work too much? I’ve started making up fake pie charts in my head. It’s completely normal, I swear.
So what about you - is it cold where you are? How are you handling it? Are you tired of seeing everyone complaining about the weather? Well, so am I. So much so that I figured, why not jump on the bandwagon? ;]

What I Wore:
Coat: Maria D // Delia’s
Dress, Belt, Socks, + Hat: Forever 21
Sweater: New York & Co.
Scarf: Shi by Journey’s
Gloves + Tights: Target
Boots: Express
Bag: Vintage Coach // Still Chic Boutique