Weekly Landon: 17 Weeks

Weekly Landon: 17 WeeksSeptember 13, 2015 | 17 Weeks Old

I take photos and videos of my baby every single day with my iPhone. Most of you know this if you follow me on Instagram (sorry, not sorry). But when it comes to photos taken with my nice DSLR, well, I’ve really neglected using it since he’s been born. It’s just hard to think to stop and use it reguarly! So I would like to take at least one photo of him a week with my DSLR and share it here. Sometimes Nate or I will be in it, sometimes it will just be him!

It feels like fall today, so the pumpkin hat finally made it’s debut! =) I got some clearer shots of him but this one turned out to be my favorite. I feel like it really shows his personality! He’s the happiest baby when those mean old teeth aren’t bugging him. I’m so lucky to be his mom!

Aerial Silk Diaries: After Baby

It’s been a really long time since I wrote about aerial silks and where I am at with my fitness journey! I was actually still in my first trimester of pregnancy when I last blogged about it! I continued to go to aerial silk classes until February. I had Landon in May, to put that into perspective! I feel very fortunate to have had a relatively easy pregnancy that allowed me to be able to continue going.

I did a class here and there about 4 or 5 weeks after I gave birth and now I am back to going once a week along with the other yoga/fitness classes. It’s been a frustrating process – this whole “starting from scratch” feeling. But it’s all coming back a little faster than I anticipated. The foundation of strength I built up is still there thankfully! And maybe lifting a 15 lbs baby all day every day has helped a bit too!

I want this series to be about documenting my personal progress, encouraging others to go out and find their own “fitness identity”, highlighting aerialists that I look up to, reviewing fantastic workout clothes + fitness products, etc. I think sometimes it can be hard to realize that you have it within yourself to be good at something like this. (I’m not “good” by the way – but I know I can be if I try!) A lot of people say things to me like, “WOW. I wish I could do that!” …. GOOD NEWS. You can! Maybe you’ll try out aerial silks and it won’t be your thing but I promise that you have your own “fitness identity”. There is something you enjoy doing that will get you up and moving. I tried for a very long time to do crazy intense cardio workouts at home, to run, to go to the gym on my own and use the machines – I hated all of it. It annoyed me. It was confusing for me. I wandered around the gym without a plan and very little understanding of what I needed to work on. Group fitness turned out to be my thing. Aerial silks excited me and I wanted to go to class to learn something new! Not to mention, it wasn’t long before I also wanted to go to see the friends I had made too! I think that excitement is important. It keeps you going even when you’re tired and just not feeling it.

I’m not a life coach. I’m not in amazing shape. I eat donuts on the weekend, drink too much coffee and not enough water. But I’ve found the thing that motivates me and makes me feel better about myself. And I know if I want to be better at it then I have to eat a few less donuts and drink a little more water. ;] I’m still going to drink all the coffee though because … 4 month old.

What is something that you love to do that gets you moving? Or is there something you want to try that you think you would love? Tell me!

A Life Update

Let’s see!! We have just been pushing along through the days and weeks around here. It’s hard to believe that it’s already September – we have an almost 4 month old son! Just plain crazy. He is the sweetest and happiest little bundle. I’m sorry, did I say little? When we weighed him a few weeks ago he was a little over 15 lbs! Shew!

I’ve written 4 or 5 blog posts that I just haven’t had the time to finish. I’ve been meaning to re-write Landon’s birth story. I wrote it all out on my phone right after he was born and apparently it was linked to a work account that was deleted from my phone along with a few other memories and things I “wrote down” the night I had him – completely unrecoverable. Awesome! I have every note ever written on my phone from 2012 until now EXCEPT for the month of May. So frustrating. Hopefully Nate can help me remember all of the little details. =)

So we’ve just been working, enjoying our cutie, and trying to keep up with life. I’m back at Bella Forza Fitness – finally! I’m so enjoying taking aerial classes along with some of my other favorite regular fitness classes again. I’m excited to feel my body regain the strength it lost during pregnancy. So I’ve got my classes a few times a week and Nate has his golf on the weekends. It’s good for us to be able to go do our own things that we enjoy. I feel like it’s important to make that time to maintain our identities outside of mom, dad, wife, husband.

On most days I need 2 or 3 cups of coffee to function. Our house is never clean by my standards. The laundry is never caught up. We’ve eaten a lot of take out and ignored important things to take naps or a hot bath or simply to just sit on the couch. I don’t even feel bad about it anymore. Until I do and I clean like a mad woman. Haha.

We are still dealing with Landon’s health issues and I will give an update on that soon. But overall he is doing/feeling well. To be perfectly candid, I am dealing with anxiety and have had a few panic attacks in situations where I’ve felt out of control of who is touching him. I used to joke when I was pregnant about how I wouldn’t be the overprotective mom who constantly freaks out about germs and people holding him. But then he almost died of a rare disease and we were told to be a little more careful than normal. It’s a difficult situation. I am having to learn to be assertive and tell people that they have to wash their hands or just plain ‘no’ to the little ones who want to hold him and I hate it. We will have to be hermits during the holidays due to flu season and I’m already dreading that. I’m hoping that we get some nice fall weather soon so that we can do some out door things with him before the cold hits. As of right now, Summer temps are still in full effect and it is brutal to do anything outside for very long.

Hope you’re all having a wonderful Labor Day weekend!

Three Months with Landon

Landon - 3 Months Old
I never got around to blogging when Landon turned two months old and then right after that we ended up in the hospital for 11 days. It took me a while to get my bearings back a bit! But I’m happy to say that I took his 3 month pictures! Still a little late but not by much.
Don’t you love this easel art I had custom made to write his little monthly updates on? It makes for a cute decoration in his room and is (obviously) such a good prop for his monthly photos.
I know it’s probably super cliche but honestly every month has been my favorite month with him (minus the period of time spent in the hospital)! It’s so much fun to see him noticing new things and learning- discovering his hands, laughing more, rolling over! Every stage is more and more fun!
We have somewhat of a sleep routine down by now which is pretty nice! He gets a bath around 8 or 8:30PM, a little baby lotion massage, we put on his jammies, swaddle him, read to him and then I nurse him and put him down for the night at about 9PM. He’s still waking up pretty frequently to nurse but will go 3 or 4 hour stretches every now and then (and we rejoice). I’ve been transitioning him to his crib from the bassinet by our bed and he’s doing really well with it. When he wakes up I bring him to the bassinet so I don’t have to keep getting up. I’ve been making sure to soak up all of the snuggles possible because I know this time is fleeting. My absolute favorite time of day is early in the morning. He wakes up but it isn’t time to eat yet – he just wants to be held. So I put him on my chest and we sleep for about an hour before it’s time to get up.

He’s the happiest baby! He loves to play on his little play mat and will stay there for 30-40 minutes just kicking, cooing, and laughing. He smiles nonstop and has started a new thing where he’ll do something and then immediately look at me like, “SEE WHAT I DID!”. He’s started noticing the TV and stares at it if its on (oh boy) and will giggle and “talk” to it if we play something he really likes (like Veggie Tales or Thomas). He’s starting to be really chatty and wants to tell us lots of stories! Especially when I put him in his bouncy seat in the bathroom while I take a shower- he has lots to say about that!

He has recently decided that bottles are not for him. He was switching back and forth just fine between nursing and a bottle… and then… a switch flipped in his brain and bottles became evil and not to be trusted. We didn’t realize how dire the situation really was until I left to do a Pure Romance party for a few hours and Nate ended up having to syringe feed him breast milk to get him to eat and stop screaming. Ooyyyy. I love nursing him but lawd have mercy. I really hope we can get this figured out!

All in all? I’m really enjoying this wild and ridiculous roller coaster ride called motherhood. It’s challenging and heartbreaking at times but most of the time it’s pretty great. (Read: the best thing I’ve ever done with my life.)

Coming Home


We’re home. It’s both a breath of fresh air and a strange nauseated pit in my stomach. We’re home, now what?

When I gave birth 11 weeks ago there was a similar reaction to bringing Landon home. As new parents, we had and still have a lot to learn. But the great thing about being a first time mom is that God seems to grant a sense of peace about the whole thing. I was tired and stressed out for sure. I had a bit of the baby blues during his colicky weeks of endless crying. But overall I felt like, “I’ve got this.”

Bringing your baby home from the hospital after 11 days of uncertainty is a different feeling. I can’t say that we have it even close to the worst of anyone. Our babe is home and smiling and as far as we can tell at this time he will be perfectly fine. 11 days is nothing compared to the time a lot of families spend in the hospital fighting illness with their little ones. But I feel like we got a taste of something really awful that can’t be put into words and I can’t seem to get that taste out of my mouth.

When I walked into Landon’s nursery this afternoon I realized how overwhelming it all really felt. I was instantly transported back to a moment of complete chaos in the hospital – sobbing, wonder, helplessness. Days of no answers and him getting increasingly sicker with a team of frantic medical staff surrounding him. Would I bring my baby home? Standing in his room sent a cold wave of “What ifs” through my body.

But we’re home. And it’s good. And I’ve already taken his temperature to “be sure”. And we still don’t know, nor do I expect we will ever know, what made him sick and caused his Kawasaki Disease. I think that’s the hardest part. Nothing to blame. Nothing to avoid next time. Just pure paranoia because all we know is that a terrifyingly rare illness was lurking around and somehow it found my baby.

And now we resume regular life like the worst imaginable thing didn’t almost happen. Because it didn’t and we’re blessed to be here together for however long we have here on earth. The memory of this will fade but for now it is still painfully present on my mind.

The First Month: My Favorite Baby Products


1. HALO Bassinest Swivel Sleeper Bassinet: I wasn’t sure if this basinet was going to work out for us at first. Landon had a tough time sleeping flat because of his reflux. So we modified it a bit by putting a book under a leg to raise it on an incline. We also took the vibrating box from the pack n play and put it in the outside pocket on the end of the basinet. The incline and the vibration together made it absolutely perfect for us. I do think that there is a model that vibrates and plays music – but that wasn’t the one I registered for! I absolutely love that it feels like he is right there in the bed with us but yet he has his own space. I am able to pick him up to feed him in the middle of the night without ever leaving the bed. The mesh sides are great – he likes to scoot as close to me as possible and I don’t have to worry about him not being able to breathe when he smooches his face against them. I can also see him without sitting up. The mattress pad is durable and comes with a removable sheet. We bought a few extras of course! Overall, we really like this bassinet. It’s a little pricey but I think it’s worth it to have him at arms reach at night time. It’s pretty big and heavy though – so don’t expect to move it around!

2. Lollypop Muslin Swaddle Blankets: I cannot sing enough praises for these light weight swaddle blankets. They are the only swaddle blanket we’ve found that our ninja baby can’t break out of in the middle of the night. Plus they are made of a super breathable cotton material that keeps him just warm enough without being too hot. They’re large enough to also be used for a nursing cover and again the light weight material is great during this time of year. He has to be swaddled in the bassinet in order to fall asleep so these are a must have for us!

3. Kaydee Baby Bandana Bibs: Y’all know I’m all about my baby looking good! These bibs are so cute and functional. He spits up a lot with his reflux so I was changing his outfit constantly because he would soak himself. Now I just let him wear one of these and change it when I need to! They have a soft lining on the bottom that keeps him nice and dry. Love, love, love them!

4. Moby Baby Wrap: I’ve seen just about a million different wraps online. I’ve only tried this one so I can’t compare it to anything else – but I’m a little bit obsessed with baby wearing now because of it! It has the perfect stretch for a newborn and I feel like it’s very easy to learn how to use. The only issue I’ve found is that it isn’t very breathable so it can get pretty hot to wear baby out and about in the summer heat. But this thing is a life saver. If I need to get house work done I can just put him in it and go. He sleeps and stays content for hours! I’ve even nursed him in it while vacuuming!

5. carrycot that you can buy separately as well. If we lived in a bigger city where we would walk a lot more places it definitely would’ve made since to invest in that. But we don’t and the cute factor didn’t justify the price tag for me!

6. Tommee Tippee Closer to Nature Night Pacifier: We received a soothie pacifier from the hospital that Landon absolutely loved but unfortunately it didn’t really contour to his face so he couldn’t keep it in his mouth on his own. I bought other pacifiers and he wouldn’t take them because they weren’t the same nipple style as the soothie. Thankfully my Sister-in-law found these for us and he really likes them! He can keep them in his mouth on his own and they’re super cute!

7. 4Moms Rockaroo Swing: Last but not least, the 4Moms Rockaroo. I’m sure most of you moms and moms-to-be have seen this thing all over blogs, Instagram, in stores, etc. It’s pretty popular! We were given this swing as a gift and it has truly been a wonderful gadget to have. Landon slept in it when we first came home from the hospital. We slept downstairs the first few nights while we got our bearings and he slept in it between feedings. He’s continued to take naps in it and we let him hang out there whenever we need to put him down. We use it daily! He’s pretty content for about 10 minutes when he’s awake and then he’s over it. Overall, we really like this swing but after using it I’m not sure it’s better than some of the other swings out there with cheaper price tags. But!! I do love that it doesn’t take up a lot of space, it has a deep seat that makes me feel like he is very secure, the cover is easily removable/washable and it’s just … pretty! I mean – if you’re going to have kid stuff everywhere at least you can pick something that is nice to look at. ;]

Are there any must have products you’ve found for your kiddos around this age? Share!!!

Watching the Time Go By with Jord

Jord Watch
It’s more than fitting that I recently got the chance to collaborate with Jord to show how I would style one of their gorgeous wood watches. These past 6 weeks have flown by and I’ve been watching the minutes and hours tick by on this pretty little piece. I’ve been wearing it to feel a little more “put together” and it has come in handy to keep up with how often I am nursing Landon. I typically just use my phone to keep up with the time but now that I am caring for a newborn I often forget where it is and lose it in the house for a bit! Mom brain is definitely a real thing, my friends!

Aside from the functionality I really just love the modern and classic design of this watch! I feel like it goes with just about anything I wear. I’ve started to reevaluate my closet and what I want my “style” to be in this new chapter of my life. I’m looking to slowly purge the older trendier pieces to start incorporating longer lasting classic items that are easier to remix. I feel like this is the perfect accessory to add to my closet transformation!
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What I Wore:
Watch: The Ely in maple c/o Jord
Denim Top (worn over dress): Pac Sun
Dress: Forever 21
Wrap: Moby

Our Maternity Photos

Maternity photos were one thing that I always knew I would want when we had a baby *some day*. Luckily my friend Erika is a wonderful photographer with similar taste to mine so I didn’t have to look far to make it happen! I absolutely love how these turned out! We will treasure them forever. Erika also took photos during Landon’s birth. =) I can’t wait to get to share those as well!


One Month with Landon

Landon - 1 Month Old
It’s hard to believe it has now been more than a month since our sweet baby boy came into the world. These last 5 weeks have been good – a few of them extra hard. I feel like we’re on an upswing now which is quite a relief! Aside from him having colic and acid reflux – he is such a good baby.

He loves his carseat, car rides, and stroller rides. He seems to really enjoy being out just about anywhere! Being at home is just too boring and quiet! He has been to Target, Meijer, the farmers market, out to lunch at Cheddar’s, the mall, the waiting room at the doctor for two hours – no crying and if he did get a little fussy he calmed right down. Completely amazing considering there have been many days and nights at home when we could not calm him. He loves being worn in the Moby wrap. He has been sleeping pretty consistently in his bassinet (which we love). Sometimes he just really needs to sleep on me but for the most part he is content to sleep right next to me. Most of the time he goes three hour stretches without waking. We’ve had a few off nights recently where he woke up a lot more or wouldn’t go back to sleep but I think that’s normal! He loves to look around at everything and is particularly in love with the big map in our living room. If he is anywhere near it he won’t look at anything else! He has smiled a “real” smile at us a few times but doesn’t do it regularly yet. He has to be swaddled in order to sleep at night but must have his hands out above his head. Also: white noise is our best friend! He will take a bottle with breast milk and a pacifier just fine and has since he was 2 weeks. He still has all of the beautiful dark hair he was born with! His big almond shaped eyes are still blue and he has the longest eye lashes! He rubs my arm when he nurses. It’s the sweetest thing. At his last doctor appointment he was 8 lbs 15 oz and that was a few weeks ago! He is getting so big so fast! He’s already outgrown a few of his newborn outfits. *queue the crying*

I think it’s safe to say that we’re pretty in love with this little boy! I will not sugar coat it: there have been some extremely hard days. Thankfully we’ve had lots of help from family and friends to get us through! The good far outweighs everything else. We can’t imagine our lives without him and I can hardly remember what we were even doing before we had a tiny human to care for 24/7. ;] We’ve been able to go out on two date nights while my parents watched him – a little reminder that we can still get out and enjoy each other even though we have a baby. It has been so good for our sanity!

I can’t wait to start blogging again regularly – baby things, fashion things, Pure Romance things, aerial things! I feel so behind but I’ve had to just put it all aside and let myself adjust and focus on being a new mom. Looking forward to getting into a routine of sorts now that I’m getting the hang of it!

Happy Birth Day Landon!

Our sweet baby boy, Landon Timothy, was born on March 14th, 2015 at 10:57PM (7lbs 14 oz and 20 inches long)- one week ago yesterday! We are so completely in love with him! He is a very calm and relaxed baby so far. It’s amazing how much we’ve already learned about each other in one short week. Everything from his little queues and cries to how to trick him into sleeping in his bassinet by our bed. Making sure we can lay down in our bed at night and get some real sleep between feedings and diaper changes has been the key to our sanity. Nate has been amazing in every way possible. I always knew he would be a great Dad and a wonderful support system during labor but he has truly gone above and beyond. People always say you fall more in love with your spouse after you have kids and that has been so true for me.

We are so lucky to have so many family members and friends around us at this time. We have definitely not gone without meals or help when we’ve needed it – so thankful! The last couple of days we’ve gotten more into a routine of sorts. We’ve had a few trips out of the house to Target and Meijer, gone for a walk in the neighborhood, and today we ventured out to a new coffee shop downtown. I’ve definitely “bounced back” quicker than I thought I would and have just been ready to get out of the house a little bit!

I can’t wait to type out the details of labor and delivery, to share our maternity photos, to put together a list of some of the baby products we’re loving so far, etc. So many fun little details that deserve their own posts!