A Life Update

Let’s see!! We have just been pushing along through the days and weeks around here. It’s hard to believe that it’s already September – we have an almost 4 month old son! Just plain crazy. He is the sweetest and happiest little bundle. I’m sorry, did I say little? When we weighed him a few weeks ago he was a little over 15 lbs! Shew!

I’ve written 4 or 5 blog posts that I just haven’t had the time to finish. I’ve been meaning to re-write Landon’s birth story. I wrote it all out on my phone right after he was born and apparently it was linked to a work account that was deleted from my phone along with a few other memories and things I “wrote down” the night I had him – completely unrecoverable. Awesome! I have every note ever written on my phone from 2012 until now EXCEPT for the month of May. So frustrating. Hopefully Nate can help me remember all of the little details. =)

So we’ve just been working, enjoying our cutie, and trying to keep up with life. I’m back at Bella Forza Fitness – finally! I’m so enjoying taking aerial classes along with some of my other favorite regular fitness classes again. I’m excited to feel my body regain the strength it lost during pregnancy. So I’ve got my classes a few times a week and Nate has his golf on the weekends. It’s good for us to be able to go do our own things that we enjoy. I feel like it’s important to make that time to maintain our identities outside of mom, dad, wife, husband.

On most days I need 2 or 3 cups of coffee to function. Our house is never clean by my standards. The laundry is never caught up. We’ve eaten a lot of take out and ignored important things to take naps or a hot bath or simply to just sit on the couch. I don’t even feel bad about it anymore. Until I do and I clean like a mad woman. Haha.

We are still dealing with Landon’s health issues and I will give an update on that soon. But overall he is doing/feeling well. To be perfectly candid, I am dealing with anxiety and have had a few panic attacks in situations where I’ve felt out of control of who is touching him. I used to joke when I was pregnant about how I wouldn’t be the overprotective mom who constantly freaks out about germs and people holding him. But then he almost died of a rare disease and we were told to be a little more careful than normal. It’s a difficult situation. I am having to learn to be assertive and tell people that they have to wash their hands or just plain ‘no’ to the little ones who want to hold him and I hate it. We will have to be hermits during the holidays due to flu season and I’m already dreading that. I’m hoping that we get some nice fall weather soon so that we can do some out door things with him before the cold hits. As of right now, Summer temps are still in full effect and it is brutal to do anything outside for very long.

Hope you’re all having a wonderful Labor Day weekend!

Thoughts on Pregnancy: Week 26 and 27

I’ve been totally slacking on my pregnancy updates. I was 26 weeks on 2/18 and I am now 27 weeks and 2 days! On Monday I had my one hour glucose screening and I got a call the next day to let me know that I passed with flying colors – Hooray! I’m measuring right as I should be and plugging right along. I can’t believe I’m about to be in my third trimester! Daily life is definitely starting to become more challenging. Bending over, putting on socks, climbing the stairs – it all wears me out! I’ve been feeling a lot more tired and achy all over. My back hurts 24/7 and sleep is challenging to say the least. My motivation has felt really off this past week due to feeling tired and cranky overall. I have accepted the fact that I will be uncomfortable from now until the end of May. That isn’t too far off – I got this! ;]

I’ve resorted to using a rolling laptop bag for work. Carrying my giant laptop to and from work everyday through a huge parking lot and up and down a flight of stairs was getting to be too much. So now I’m the pregnant nerd who looks like she’s going to the airport everyday! I’ve also stopped taking my fitness classes at this time. I’ve replaced them with prenatal yoga at home in the mornings before work and so far I’m really enjoying that. I really need to be doing that twice a day though. It feels really odd to go from being extremely active down to almost nothing. That’s not what I had in mind at all. The snow and ice has made it impossible for me to get outside and walk which is frustrating since that is what I really need to be doing at this point. I’m hoping and praying we will get some Springtime weather here soon!

Baby Boy is moving tons lately and I love it. His movements are definitely getting stronger every day and it is so much fun to feel and see!

I’ve made the decision to do the natural childbirth thing. Never in all of my life did I think I would go that route but after doing a lot of research and thinking about what I feel is best for baby and I, that is definitely what I want. I’m well aware that ‘birth plans’ are just that – plans. And sometimes our plans do not work out in reality! But it will not be for lack of being prepared. I’m so thankful to be able to attend natural child birth classes and to have midwives that fully support me!

How Far Along Are You: 27 weeks and 2 days.
How Big Is The Baby?: My app says he is around 2.5lbs!
How Much Weight Have You Gained?: About 20 lbs.
Maternity Clothes: Yep, yep – all the maternity clothes!
Stretch Marks: Still no sign of them yet. Still lathering on the Save My Skin body oil and Body Silk lotion!
Sleep: I am not sleeping well at all. I had to start sleeping with a pillow between my knees this week. Up until now I’ve only had one under my back. There is truly no comfortable position to sleep in at this point.
Best Moment This Week: Passing that glucose test! I was super nervous about it. And my Mom got to be at the appointment with me. =) Another best: finding out there is a spot for Nate and I in the Natural Childbirth class I was on a waitlist for!
Movement: Lots and lots! I’ve just started to experience some rib pain on the right side. I think he’s wedging himself up into my ribs now!
Food Cravings: Strawberry nutrigrain bars and green smoothies. I’ve been drinking at least two green smoothies a day made with spinach, frozen fruit, and either orange juice or almond milk. Addicted!
Food Aversions: None. Give me all of the food.
Labor Signs: Nothing!
Belly Button In or Out: Sort of flat, sort of poking out a little. Nate and I have a bet going on as to whether or not my pregnancy barbell is going to actually work in my piercing. He thinks I’m going to have to take it out eventually. Nooo.
What I Miss: Sleep. Feeling comfortable.
What I’m Looking Forward To: Spring weather. Baby showers! Getting the nursery decorated!

Goodbye 2014


As we head into 2015 I find myself looking back on 2014 with a lot of love. This year was pretty wonderful. I found a hobby, passion, confidence, and an entire new group of friends through aerial silk classes and group fitness. Nate and I celebrated 4 fantastic years of marriage. I dyed my hair pink and blue. I started my own business with Pure Romance and had a super successful launch party to kick it off! My favorite cousin came to visit and stay with us for a while. We went to an insane amount of concerts and festivals – Bruce Springsteen, Jason Isbell, Dwight Yoakam, Jack White, Manchester Orchestra, Saves The Day, Say Anything, Bayside, Anberlin, 500 Miles to Memphis, Band of Horses.. and more.. I know I’m missing a few! We tailgated and hung out with our friends a ton. We found out we are going to have a baby in May 2015! We saw our sweet baby for the first time and heard the heartbeat. We announced it to the world. My parents came to visit and look at houses – because they’re moving to Kentucky! We found out we are having a boy! We rearranged our living room and started preparing our office space to be a nursery. We celebrated Christmas for the last time as a family of two.

This year we also said goodbye to our sweet baby bunny, Freckles. We found out while we were gone on our trip to Washington D.C. that he had passed away. We are still not home at this time and I know it will be so hard to go home to his empty cage. I hate that we weren’t there, that we don’t really know why or what happened. We had just let him out a few nights before to play and lay by the Christmas tree. I will miss him so much as we go into a new year without him.

But we have a lot to be thankful for and I am so looking forward to the year ahead of us. My parents will be moving to Kentucky in the next month or two, our baby will arrive in May, and our lives will be forever changed. We have a lot to do to prepare for all of the changes coming our way and I couldn’t be more excited!

Our New Years Eve will be spent in a hotel room recovering to fly home on Friday. Nate and I have been sick since we arrived in Washington D.C. and yesterday we found out that Nate has Pneumonia. It’s been a rough vacation – but we are still so thankful. This baby makes everything okay.

Happy New Year, friends.

Positivity & The Internal Struggle

Every single morning this week I have woken up to the sound of my very loud and obnoxious internal struggle. You know the one. One foot on the floor – I hate this, I’m so tired – two feet on the floor – I hate work – walk to the sink – UGHHH I look terrible – put contacts in – Whatever. I don’t even care what I look like today. That has been me, every morning. And if I don’t get my coffee? Whew lord – let’s not even discuss that as an option. I’m recognizing this because this isn’t my normal function any more, and it used to be. I used to wake up every single day with a poor outlook on life. It was real pathetic, because I’m a happily married woman with very little to complain about in the grand scheme of things. We all have bad days and weeks though, right? So I’m trying not to beat myself up about it and just kind of give myself a free pass this week. But ya know? It really got me to thinking about what I’ve changed in my life to get to the point where bad moods and negative self talk aren’t the norm any more. I think I figured a few of them out..

1. I started exercising. – But seriously. I used to be one of those people who wanted to punch anyone that told me I was exhausted because I wasn’t doing something that would OBVIOUSLY just make me more exhausted. What kind of logic is that?! But HA, I’ve been proven so wrong and now I’m completely advocating that advice. Go for a walk, do like 15 minutes of yoga and stretching when you have a spare moment, etc. If you get distracted easily when you’re alone like I do, think about joining a group exercise class. Group fitness has saved me from myself because anytime I’m left to fend for myself in a gym or at home- I get bored, overwhelmed, or too focused on negative thinking about how I’d rather be eating chips on a beach somewhere.

2. I stopped over-thinking everything. – Sometimes you just have to do things without thinking too much about them. One of my favorite things to ask myself whenever I start to over-think something is, “What’s the worst that could happen?”. The worst possible scenario is usually something slightly unpleasant that wont kill me. Sometimes I make a quick “yes” or “no” decision and stick with it instead of weighing all of the pros and cons and giving myself anxiety over something simple like whether or not I want to go out to dinner. (By the way, the answer is always “Yes” to food.)

3. I stopped obsessing. – I used to obsess over things that were bothering me, for days, and days. For example, if someone seemed irritated I would automatically wonder if they were upset with me specifically and then spend all of my time being worried about it. That is A) a very self involved way to think and B) a very exhausting way to live life. If something is really bothering me I find a way to resolve or let it go. I still have days where something will bug me more than normal, but we all have those! If I really can’t shake something I busy myself with something I enjoy doing until whatever is bothering me subsides.

4. I started living in the moment. – It can be pretty easy to be distracted from being present in the moment with all of the technology that we have at our finger tips constantly. I love to document life through photography and blogging but I’ve tried to find more of a healthy balance lately. I choose to leave my DSLR at home when I know it will just be a distraction/annoyance and I try to remain self aware of my phone use. Sometimes I just HAVE to Instagram a photo RIGHTNOW but then I try to put my phone away. ;] As for blogging, I’m still working on that balance. I try really hard not to work on anything late into the night and utilize my free time wisely. I don’t beat myself up if life gets in the way of blogging.

5. I stopped sweating the small stuff. – Cheesiest saying ever but it’s true. I have finally learned that no one in my day to day life really cares if I have on eyeliner or if the curl has fallen out of my hair. I never really thought that they did but I worried about it as if someone actually did. If my house gets a little dirty from time to time because I’m busy living – it’s ok. I’ve traded in the time that I used to spend freaking out about perfect makeup, daily washed hair, and an organized house for the gym, time spent with Nate, and sleeping in. I’m much more sane for it and I highly doubt anyone has even noticed the difference. Ha.

What about you? What keeps your life in balance and your mood in check? Have you set out to change any bad habits? For me it has really required a daily conscious effort and focus on positivity, but I am happy to say that this way of thinking has mostly become a habit for me now. I’d love to hear your thoughts!

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